Posted in life, WLS, tagged holidays, post op, WLS on November 20, 2008 |
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What makes me satisfied in this world? It is cold here now and I’m losing the weight I wanted, but now I’m freakin’ cold all the time. I think I may be experiencing the start of some sort of nutritional deficits or something weird. My eyes are really dry, my body is shrinking, my energy level is lower than it has been. I have having dizzy spells, and feel like falling over sometimes while working out. Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining. I vowed to myself that when I had this surgery I would not complain, after all I’m the one that made this conscious decision to have this life-altering surgery. So why, you ask am I’m bitching? Well it’s my self expression blogness and I can bitch if I want to. Perhaps I am experiencing some sort of self torture phase. I no longer get any enjoyment from eating and when I tell people that, they just don’t understand. Food is no longer good to me. Yes, sometimes it tastes good, but it continues to cause nausea, vomiting and stomach pain weekly. It has been almost 21 weeks post op and I still feel like it has only been a couple of weeks.
Another struggle, I am currently facing are the holidays. I need to take a break from all “old” lifestyle routines and be prepared to deal with these problems like head hunger. My family and friends have been great about trying to understand, but I don’t think that they have a really clue. What is it like when you can’t eat what you want to? Well it sucks to put it mildly. Like being served a life sentence of bread and water….well not really I can’t eat bread! But you get the the drift? Food evokes memories and memories are sometimes brought out by the foods we eat. How does one create new holiday memories that don’t directly involve food? It will continue to be a struggle, and I have no choice but to move forward. Sometimes less, is more.
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